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Chapter 13 28 istry, ask for a country, and ask for the world! I believe everyone must God will not just take you by force. If you want to be ask God to be used by involved in ministry, you must ask Him for it. Him, if that is what they desire. 13 Learn to ask for God’s direction It’s so easy to say with words that we are Christians But, there is more than one way to start a family, and and that we have given our lives to God. It’s a whole there are thousands of children in the USA hoping for a different thing to actually live it. You can go up your de- family, so we decided to start fostering and then at some nominational ladder or up the ladder in Christian fame point adopt one of our foster children. without this step; but I frmly believe you cannot go up We went to the 12-week foster class and got certifed. God’s real ladder as a soldier until you learn to actually Then one fateful day the call came, they had a baby they let HIM run your life. wanted us to take. As soon as we hung up the phone This means actually stopping to ask God’s direction for with the foster lady, my husband and I were so excited! small and large decisions along the road of life. A baby!!! Living this is much different than talking about it in a But immediately after that, something hit my gut. I prayer meeting or singing it to God in a song. felt God say, “Did you guys forget to ask me?” So we stopped and prayed together, and I felt God clearly say As I have shared with you already, I wanted a family. But doesn’t everybody? I wanted the joy of having kids to me, “Did you give your life to me?” I said yes. He running around in my home, having an heir to my fam- said, “Then, let me run it. I have you without children ily, and bringing cousins over to grandma’s house for for a reason. If you take this baby, you are taking the all the fun parties and seasons year after year. I doubt reins back to your life.” that I had actually planned for the diaper-part of having children though. I felt God say, “Did you So when I married my “Guapo” (or handsome one) guys forget to ask me?” as I affectionately call him, of course we started right away trying to get pregnant. I was 26, and ready, and he was 38 and even more ready to be the best dad on Dwight agreed. We took a day to confrm, and decided the planet. that we could NOT disobey God. We told him that He was boss, and we preferred to let Him run our lives. So, So we tried to get pregnant, and tried… but every the next day, we called the foster lady back, and told her month, nothing happened. So we went to the doctor to we would not be taking any children. see what was the problem. Dwight checked out ok, so there was something wrong with me, and they couldn’t Actually letting God have the reins of my life has been fnd anything the easy way. much harder than I expected. Maybe because I actually